Nathan

Just saw this. Awesome. Thanks to Glorifying the Horrifying.

Happy New Year y'all. Have a good one. It is going to be a great 2004.

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Near the land of the rising sun America's soul may yet set. Near the pillars of DC, Seoul has become expendable.

"... I'm just here, brother, trying to exist in a world where nobody knows what they're doing. We don't know what's going on. ... I'm tyrannical, because I'm not happy with myself. I don't care if I live or die. I don't give a &%$# about any of you all -- but I do. ... I don't know if I've ever loved anybody. I definitely don't think anybody will ever love me. ... I've got serious demons I'm fighting." Tyson.

Driving home from work today I got to thinking about my sister. Haven't talked to her too much recently, but think we are on good terms.

I was thinking about what, in my mind, defines her now. That pretty much is her religion. Thankfully she has been getting more subtle about it recently though. I have absolutely nothing against spirituality or religion I just have problems with people wanting, needing to talk and remind you about theirs all the time. I got it.

So I was thinking about this and about an email that I sent her a little while ago. It was about this. Seems that Emerson delivered a speech in 1838 before the Harvard Divinity School that got him banned from Harvard for something like 30 years. Anyway I sent this along to her to open a dialogue with her about what, to me, defines her now... something that I felt might interest her and get us talking a little bit more.

Well she hasn't gotten back to me and in fact just came by my house from out of state Christmas evening and simply dropped off a package without stopping in or even saying hi or ringing the bell. Weird stuff. Was I wrong to share this speech with her and look to discuss it with her? Is that against her religion? I have no idea. Seems to me that organized religion does some weird things to people.

Get rid of it is what I say. Lets all have our own ideas about what spirituality means, who God is, where S/He lives... it would be more interesting. We can agree on some fundamental things no doubt, but why not each have our own unique view of what spirituality means or even whether it means anything. Let's have some dialogue. Let's educate each other in what these things mean individually and each be fine with each other one way or a muthafucking nother. Peace homey. I'm out.

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To update you on the work situation. We had a bed check this morning at 830am. I think these sorts of checks are somewhat juvenile. The comment made to one of my coworkers during this bed check was, 'Clean up your desk.' It was pitiful. Company is crumbling around us and the 'leadership' is concerned about bed checks and desks while at the same time giving no direction or reason for showing up early. I could go on forever...

Been reading a really interesting book. I am going to have to purchase it one of these days. You can find it here (thanks to blogspot for sharing this book with me in part of their literature about blogging at work). Damn insightful stuff and frankly the wave of the future.

Talking with one of my coworkers about it I was commenting how this book could have a variety of consequences, intended and otherwise. It could stand as truly revolutionary or, more likely, fade away in the days ahead... we will see. I think the truths they write of are undenyable and the outcome should be interesting. Great read.

Peace and love y'all. Nathan.

Slow Christmas here so I thought I might write in a bit about myself. I work at a software company in the bay area. Right now, I fear, it is a seriously struggling company. Things have changed at the company and they are having a serious mid life crisis.

To me it involves some very interesting things. It involves the clash between the idea that this wonderful network has changed the world and that people will never change. Mr. McNealy once commented on this.. it was very insightful. Shit I can't find it anywhere on the net, but his point was simply that you will never be able to take human and humanity out of the market place. It is something that cuts many ways and my company is stuggling to figure it out.

So when I look at it from an objective point of view it looks interesting. It is different looking at it from the cube.

When I am not in the cube I like to have a great time outdoors. Love basketball, soccer, mountain biking, almost anything. Just watched the King Tmac matchup and it was a good one. King J is gonna be something special. Tmac, much love though. You go over 40 with an attitude you doing something right. Nice to have competition though I am sure... nice to have.

peace and love.

Just wanted to write in on this day of our Lord, 24 of December, 2003. Unlike Hunter though I think there are some great things going on. Things that people don't talk about.

It is easy to be distracted by all the terrible things going on around us. Even here in our own country there are traitors to our way of life in our midst. This, agreed, is sad, but part of the plan... part of the beauty. Can't you see it? It is in you and in all of us. Some have seen the light, some are struggling to find it (me) but think they have seen glimpses and others are confused and wandering. I hope they find their way... I think they will.

That brings me to the positive things going on. Nathan to do with money or gifts or our environment especially (thank you, President Bush. Thank you, industry), but something free and easy. A smile. A kiss. A hug. A caring that cannot be expressed in words, but is there in the eyes. I hope I express this caring, I am trying to- it is hard. I see it in others. The world is so special, so amazing, so full of beauty if we are to open our hearts to it, open our hearts to everything. Educate yourselves, care for others as much as you care for yourself... care for yourself very much. Spread your caring and love and light for others.

Enjoy your holidays. This is a very special time.

Give.